Saturday, June 14, 2003
Spent the last 3 years more or less static...thinkin abt you every minute of everyday. even at my most focus.
Spent the last years of life achieving nothing.. never failed to think of you every moment of the day. even when i tried to push ur memories out of the walls of night. yu remained close. i always thought words were insufficient in coveyin the feelings i had, yet now it seems it was due to lack of words on my part that made us drift apart. now it seemed so clear..you were only flirting. maybe havin said all.. i was doin the same. but i haven finally learned my lesson.. yet its sad to look back..n it seems yu haven realised that. still so self absorbed in that protective bubble of yours. in ur perfect world...the world i tried to be part of. im better newer...n i will survive tis and bounce back with a vengeance.. the next 3 years of my life..i will cherish it. today was the turning pt. i saw celeste. 3 yrs ago we were in the same class at the same lousy sch. she didnt wan to go JC...but her family wanted too. i was workin.. gd pay(7/hr).. freedom to roam. well now she is so sophisticated...a woman if i may say...and im workin at hagen daz..fer a few pennies.5/hr. im better den tis...n my school work is barely alive. i understand that pple muz go through shit..in life. IM DETERMINDED TO GET out of tis a Better man. GO FER IT MAN... !
Spent the last years of life achieving nothing.. never failed to think of you every moment of the day. even when i tried to push ur memories out of the walls of night. yu remained close. i always thought words were insufficient in coveyin the feelings i had, yet now it seems it was due to lack of words on my part that made us drift apart. now it seemed so clear..you were only flirting. maybe havin said all.. i was doin the same. but i haven finally learned my lesson.. yet its sad to look back..n it seems yu haven realised that. still so self absorbed in that protective bubble of yours. in ur perfect world...the world i tried to be part of. im better newer...n i will survive tis and bounce back with a vengeance.. the next 3 years of my life..i will cherish it. today was the turning pt. i saw celeste. 3 yrs ago we were in the same class at the same lousy sch. she didnt wan to go JC...but her family wanted too. i was workin.. gd pay(7/hr).. freedom to roam. well now she is so sophisticated...a woman if i may say...and im workin at hagen daz..fer a few pennies.5/hr. im better den tis...n my school work is barely alive. i understand that pple muz go through shit..in life. IM DETERMINDED TO GET out of tis a Better man. GO FER IT MAN... !
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